Sunday, March 18, 2007
i jz feel lyk isolating myself n hide frm evry1 loh.i dowan 2 open my eyes n c any1 liaox.cn ani1 feel e silence in me?!my heart's freezing;im feeling cold.even my attitude IS cold.im stressed up n i vent my anger on evry1.i sux so GET LOST!woke up 2dae n ws in a damn bad mood.shouted at mum n dad.haix i duno wt's happenin 2 me.mood swings?no i dun tink so.its lyk i haven been s emo n temperamental 4 hw long le cans.evn if im bad mood norm i wud tend 2 kp it insid.bt i cnt take it le.thr's s many tings in my mind i feel lyk bursting liaox.its lyk evn a smallsmall ting lyk a fly cud make me soso angry.i feel lyk evrytink i do is wrng.everytink i do is stupid.n wt OTHERS do is correct.im miserable n u're all HAPPY can!arhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!i tot tt tis hols wud help me 2 ease my pain.4get about him.relax.bt wt did i get?im stuck in tuition n homeworks jz bcus im expected 2 do beta.yes i said i wud do beta.bt does it means i haf 2 spend 6hrs on my revision?its totally out of point loh.since pri sch til nw,im alwaes free 2 do wt i wan n thn nw scully lidat.i dun tink u evn understand my feelings loh.thn aun came 2dae n i ws in a super bad mood n wrng tyming she tok 2 me.i heard bt nv rply.thn mummy scold me lah.insid i ws tinkin hw rude i ws.haix i STIL cnt 4gt him.haha im e world's BEST MORON!he's living happily nw n u're suffering.n its al bcus of U URSELF.y did u evn accpt him?u gt tis upon urself.n u let him hurt u again?im s disappionted in u..if thrs anothr turning point in lyf,i'd rather tt i'd nvr walked tis path.n i mean it.really.='(
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17o05o07
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