Wednesday, August 23, 2006
jz gave a call to my grandma(mom's side) jz nw..i cried aft spoking to her..inside i ws feeling s guilty and full of regret.. mayb at tt tym i shudn haf made tt decision.. bt hw cud i noe it wud all end up lyk tis? den evn whn i made tt decision, i shud haf at least came n visited her sumtym.. bt i haf nt.. its been almost 6 months i nvr saw her oredi.. i kept telling myself tt next tym i'll go n visit her.. bt in e end it kept dragging on n on n on.. 2dae i din go bcus i ws e onli one haven pass up my home econs n im suppose to pass up by 2dae.. s i cnt go.. bt i cnt.. i jz feel s guilty.. i hate myself.. grandma's health has deproved.. i heard frm my aunt.. bt whn i tok to her on e phone.. she ws still.. asking mi to take care n all despite her health..she ask mi to study hard.. thn inside i ws tinking.. haf i done tis? she had taken s much care of mi whn i ws young..i duno.. i cnt go on..
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