Saturday, March 31, 2007
i dun understand.i rili dun understand lahysd u all left me in a farking pissed mood.im sry i shudnt b saeing all tis cus its ovr.bt cn u at least spare a tot 4 me?doesnt mean tt i kp quiet tt means im feeling nth.doesnt mean i dun wan 2 sae means im a coward.im jz tolerating all tis okay.im not a fool.nt an idiot.i oso have feelings 2 lyk all of u lah.b4 recess.i wan copy e ws.ya its correct if i copy tt tym i wun b able 2 listen 2 wt tcher saeing.bt pls lah.recess i go buy food 4 u all u tink i gt tym 2 copy?okay nvm.thn recess.orders came.actually ws going down wid weizhen bt ysd she dowan go down.i dn lyk 2 go down alone o wt lah.i dowan 2 go down alone.it makes me feel stupid cans.n there i ws holding e slip of orders n asking hu wud go down wid me.n evry1 downa 2 go down jz bcus they DUN feel lyk going down.wt about me lehx.u tink i lyk 2 take orders frm u all?i oni dun mind loh.n i stil gt hw 2 copy leh.thn u all ask me go here go thr asking ppl.thn lata whn no1 wan 2 go down,sakshi ask me pei her go council table.sry nt i dowan 2 go.bt i jz quit council i dowan 2 b xtra thr.i noe u r trying 2 find waes 2 make me feel more at home bt i jz dowan 2 trouble u.thn in e end wq go down wid me lohx.aft we buy food liao,i wnt up.i noe deb care cus she asked me wt happen.i guess she knew it from e lk on my face.im sry i noe i shudnt haf bhaved lidat.bt if u put urself in MY shoes,hw will u feel?is nt i dowan 2 buy 4 u.bt its lyk.tink tis wae lah,if u all take turns 2 go down wid me,1 wk oni nd 2 go down 1 tym o less ryt.n its nt as if im asking u all 2 do sth illegal o wt lah.aniwaes dun take tis seriously lahx.its ovr n im okay nw.im nt blaming anibody.sry i jz had 2 sae it out nw cus i dowan 2 kp it insid until e lst min thn i sae evrytink out.n thr's a need 2 apologize 2 those im being attituded 2..yeah tis few wks i've been feeling depressed lah.s i jz vent attitude on u ppl.sry guys.its lyk sumtyms,i dun tink ani1 understands me..cus evrytink tt they sae,in e end im stil left alone 2 face it.ysd nyt i locked myself in e toilet n cried.cried until i felt muchmuch beta..aft sch ysd i wnt 2 find him 2 gt bac my umbrella.duno y,my heart aches whn he lked s cold n ws lyk avoiding my eye.m i tt scary?o isit tt u jz cnt face me aft all tt u've done?u're being idiot hir u noe.u're avoiding me.u're running away bcus u dun dare 2 face 2 e problem.stop being a coward lah!u tink u cn avoid 4eva mehx.n wt farking special frenx r u refering 2 me as?idiots arh?o enemies instead?ur msg is lyk evn more cold thn norm frenz can.u tink i duno?i hate tolerating all tis le loh.whn i try 2 b kind n understnading,u take me lyk a fool o sum1 2 step ovr.whn im demanding,u sae im controlling ur lyf.evrytink u nt happy.fark lah!i sick of tis liao cans!okay stop saeing bout tis spoil my mood.i cnt w8 4 sports day!yipee!crap lah thurs haf 2 maths test.a maths e maths all test..wan us die arh.thn aft tt gt e mediacorp tingy until nyt cans.n ysd e choc ws delicious lohduno they blend wt water wid syrups 4 chng yong n mathn tt disgusting choc blended wid water n syrup!i cnt blif hw they cud drink it up lehx.lks lyk ur $$$ were wasted though.lolsargh my dark circles were s obvious!tis few nyts haf nt been slping nicely..well..nth 2 sae lesigning off,manda ♥ hidden inside my heart,i noe u stil exist.u do.
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17o05o07
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