Saturday, March 03, 2007
ystd our 3rd mth le..bt its wnt we decided to end evrytink.its sort of hard 4 me 2 accept.bt i haf 2 move on..i realized wt it means whn u sae tt its oni 4 sum1 u rili luv tt u'll cry 4 them.yup i cried ystd nyt.n i ws out wid mummy daddy n bro.i told her about it.i tink dad oso guessed wt happen liao.i expect them 2 scold me,lecture me 4 getting into tis kind of relationship probs.bt no,they din.instead,mom talked 2 me e whole nyt.she told me tt no mata wt happens,i haf 2 b strong.i mz learn to overcome tis n dun repeat e same mistake again.we chatted vry long.n tts whn i realized sumwhr around me,thr r ppl hu care.they r alwaes thr 4 me,supporting me.like deb,larry,wq,sakshi my family n frenz.i ws stubborn ystd.sort of wnt mad whn i tried to control my tears.bt it jz flowed naturally.i guess i'll jz haf 2 cry it all out.deb practically shouted evrytink in2 my head.he scolded me 2.he said he ws angry cus i jz refused 2 moved on.n whn he said tt he haf no feelings 4 me animore,i finally woke up.mayb sumtyms its ryt 2 shout at me.its oni thn i will realiz my mistake.i din noe wt 2 rply at tt tym.i ws v hurt.v sad.e dae b4 ystd,i ws spending tym folding straw harts wid e intention of giving it 2 him.it took me e whole nyt b4 i finished e whole lot of straws.sumore i ws stuck wid e group project work n vocab test.bt nw i guess i'll jz throw it away.its no use hanging on.n if one day u happen 2 read tis,i dowan u 2 blame urself..i've 4given u.u shud learn 2 4gif urself.pls dun blame urself.stop hating urself.stop saeing tt u cnt accept urself animore.mayb we're nt fated 2 b 2gt.like wt u said,if we r,we'll mit again.thr's owaes a glimspe of hope whn u kp hoping.sumtyms,u jz haf 2 accept e fact whn its gone.i dowan 2 haf any sibling relationship 2 do wid u cus it wud oni bring back painful memories.im sry 4 being selfish.i cnt slp ystd.whn i finally slp at 12sth,i woke up at 1+,thn 4+,thn 6+..i off my hp bcus i dun wana listen animore.bt whn i finally took up e courage to on my hp n read ur msg,i guess i felt beta.thks 4 evrytink.i will learn 2 let go wid e wonderful memories u left me.i will learn 2 let go n at least i noe we still lyk each other..im living in e bitterswit world nw.i wan peace n quiet.i wan 2 sort out my tots.i nd tym 2 get over.i may nt b strong nw.bt i will grow stronger in future.at least i haf tis strong willpower 2 live on.i nv blifed tt lyf is w/o hope.its jz part n parcel of lyf.n whether u r willing 2 let go.its ovr.im gona cry.im gona cry it all out.im gona let it go.im gona live on..
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17o05o07
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